“Nature uses only the longest threads to weave her patterns, so that each small piece of her fabric reveals the organization of the entire tapestry.”Richard Feynman, “The Character of Physical Law”
My quilting inspiration comes from my entire life: every thought, every book, every experience, every action. In my brain and in my heart, literally everything is interconnected, and I get a thrill seeing these complex relationships within the world. I want to see and find more. And yet, when I started quilting professionally in 2009 and started sharing my work, I tried hard to follow the industry standard of only sharing business and quilt related stuff.
And I hated it.
As the months and years went on, this self-limiting slowly took away my happiness and joy in making quilts. Making anything, actually. The desire to create, to explore, to make new things drained away because it hurt to close off the rest of me, and it hurt to not talk about the wide world that contributed to how I made what I made. It hurt too much not to share that with you, and so for a long time… I gave up. I fell into despondency, and eventually, despair.
I wanted to talk about our DIY adventures, how we painted our house by ourselves, how I picked the colors which are–funnily enough–like the colors of my favorite quilt. The one could not happen without the other.
I felt like I couldn’t talk about the rainbow streamers we made for the porch using fabric from my stash. Originally they were intended for the neighborhood “rainbow hunt” for families isolating in the time of Covid, but we left them up for Pride Month. All these things connect in my mind and heart.
Like many of you these last months, Covid, quarantine, and the just fight for human rights has shaken up my being. Things I had long since thought were quiescent and put to rest have been stirred up and made active, even settled in at home. For a long time, these walls felt restricting and small, but then I realized that was because I had felt restricted and small.
This house, my family.
This earth and all its people.
This heart and body and mind.
The work of my hands.
These are the threads of my world. They are all connected. Nietszche said, “Invisible threads are the strongest ties.” It’s time to pull on them and see where they lead.
I realized how much I’ve missed writing, so I’ll be writing longer posts here once a week and sharing more frequent visual snippets on Instagram. Won’t you join me?
I truly believe that inside all of us there is a nurturing for the creative. We have to cultivate that seed and many times that may seem difficult. Perseverance keeps our minds active and “restriction” is only a word. Sometimes we get “stuck” but we move past that and become once again excited about what we can create. Take one day at a time. Giving up is not an option! Only a slight setback. We all need inspiration and that can be found by looking around us. Nature always inspired me. I love flowers and even the blades of grass with their many colors of green and yellow. So many colors are seen. Quilting is what’s in our hearts not what others expect of us. Beautiful things come from beautiful people. There are many things in this world that we have no control over. We only have control over what we do. I hope peace and creative inspiration settle into your heart soon.
Loving the colors on your house. Your door would be amazing in hot pink! Glad you’re back. ❤️
Latifah Saafir says
I love you friend. You are magic. You are multidimensional. Let it all shine. XO
Susan Freudenthal says
Nice to hear from you again. Missed you!
Love your house & it’s coat of many colors! Beautiful